This Is What I Do to Avoid Political Rants.

Everyone all over is talking about gun control laws, and honestly it's gotten really annoying. I can tell most of the stuff is said to start some hot debate (and due to the fact that you are annoying I kind of want to buy guns simply to annoy you...but I won't) and honestly, not cool. No one is talking about the real issues. The things that really matter. Here are some things I have pondered today (it was a day I forgot my iPod at home and was forced to drive with the radio on...):

1. Is it weird to play a Taylor Swift song immediately following a One Direction song? I mean didn't those two break up? What songs, you may ask... I did actually get the titles of said songs and tried to piece together some story (because honestly, listening to the songs is much more boring). I believe it was the awkward One Direction song called Little Things (yes, darling...that muffin top...so adorable...) followed by T-Swift's song I Knew You Were Trouble. So I'm guessing what's his head complimented her muffin top and she took that as a sign that he was trouble and she obviously should have know. 

2. It's a little awkward that someone that is around the same age as me (T-Swift) would date someone that is around the age of my younger brother (the One Direction weirdo). That's just too weird of an age gap at that point in your lives I think. Getting out of those teeny bopper year, and being finally legal to booze it up. I think we all know what that floppy haired kid was going for.

3. It's weird that T-Swift is nearly the same age as me. She acts like a 12 year old. I mean I may like a few songs of hers, but that doesn't mean that she doesn't act like a child.

4. Why in the world did I waste so much time thinking about T-Swift and just one of her many ex-boyfriends?

5. Why is no one playing JT's new song on the radio yet. I just think it should instantly be on there so that at least when I am stuck with the radio there's a larger chance that something good will come on and I can enjoy myself instead of making up elaborate stories about people's lives. 

6. Why did I have to start watching the HBO miniseries, Mildred Pierce, AFTER everyone has already seen it? Why is no one still talking about it? I'm dying to talk about it. I'm through part 3 (just got it from my place of employment..la biblioteca, yesterday) and I want to slap her daughter. And then slap some sense into Mildred. Stupid.

I think that just about ends my ridiculous rant for the night. Hope it takes your mind off of gun control laws. I know people's opinions are all over the place, and I prefer not to even say what I think because I don't know enough and don't want to start anything (which is kind of what a lot of people should do I think).

And to end it, the JT song I think the radio should play on command just for me when I left my iPod at home.

I think I'll move to Stars Hollow

Yea...I've been on a Gilmore Girls kick lately it seems. I really enjoyed that show, and still do. The fact that the library happens to own all the seasons makes it that much more accessible (minus the fact that the season that I need next was recently checked out and not due back until the 25th. Lame). So as I have watched the Gilmores and the small town drama I decided that, if it did exist, I would move to Stars Hollow. Why, you may ask:

1. Small towns are kind of fun. First off, Stars Hollow seems to be conveniently close to many larger towns. I mean they technically only talk about Hartford being close, but then suddenly Harvard isn't THAT far away and many other places as well. Then there's the small town gossip. The gossip they have there is awesome. Everything travels so fast, and everyone is in everyone's business, but their "secrets" tend to be pretty lame (for the most part). For some reason I would love to be a part of that not so intense town gossip. The stuff I hear around here is more like so and so divorced so and so and the reason why. Don't care. I guess I am saying it's all so ridiculous and not too trashy and I want to be a part of it.

2. Now I'm going with the assumption that all the characters and places would be the same. So of course I would want to know Rory and Lorelai and all of that fun stuff, but I'm pretty sure eating at Luke's would be the best. I could become a regular, and apparently the coffee there is the best ever (since that's essentially all they drink) so I may actually love coffee. Sounds like a legitimate reason, right?

3. Kirk's topical t-shirts (season 3, for all you Gilmore Girls lovers). I would love a shirt that said that Babette ate oatmeal, ohhh or the Faux Poes Foes shirt. I feel like I would have a hard time not buying his topical t-shirts. Such a killer business he could have.

4. Kirk in general. Kirk is one of the most entertaining characters. You honestly never really understand him and I love that. He is the entertainment in many situations without really knowing it. And his interpretive dancing skills, wonderful. Oh my goodness, I need to stop sitting in my house so much watching this tv show.

5. Town meetings! The whole town gets together and meets about stupid things like too many deer, and the birds pooping on the streetlights. I don't know if I would want to be directly involved in these meetings, but I would definitely want to be a spectator. 

I am sure there are more reasons. But for now that's all I can think of. If you wish that I go on please speak with me personally and I will add to the list.

For some reason this town just seems so fun. Everyone knows everyone (you think I would be sick of that by this point in my life don't you?) and everyone seems to socialize with everyone. There are all these town festivals and functions that you are not entirely sure why they have them, but as a viewer I want to be a part of it.

If only Stars Hollow existed.

I should probably take a break from Gilmore Girls for awhile, shouldn't I?

This is a bit personal, so feel free to ignore if you wish

This is kind of personal, and kind of weird for me to talk about. I don’t really like to talk about this type of thing; I hate to think that I sound pathetic. But at this point I’m kind of struggling with some things and I need to get it out, and if anyone cares enough that is reading this I could definitely use a little help.

Basically, these last few months have been incredibly up and down for me. Like more than I’m used to. I was so excited to move into this house. Was so excited that we were finally having a place of our own again, after 6 months of living in my mom’s basement. And I like this house, don’t get me wrong. I think this house is great for us, it’s just that it’s become less of an us and more of a me. With his job he’s gone a lot. I hate it so much. Yes, this job pays pretty well. Yes, it puts food on the table, which we need, and it pays the bills. Yes, my job is only part time, meaning we need him to work this job. But the fact that he’s not here so much sucks. I honestly have no better way to describe it. I know some people have it worse. I know there are situations that will suck more than this that will come up (if he talks about the whole wanting to be deployed eventually thing again I might lose it) but at the moment this sucks. I’m starting to feel like I can count the days that he’s home on one hand. It’s really hard on me. And with me being insanely prone to seasonal depression it is not going so well. I hate to have to even mention it at all, and I’m probably only writing about it on here because I don’t know who to mention it to. I feel like it either gets overlooked or looked at too closely. I’m not saying that I have no one to talk to at all, I’m just not sure who to talk to. And it’s hard for me to actually talk about this stuff. I’d like to say I’m perfectly fine, so maybe that’s why I feel the need to write about it and put it on a place so public. I honestly don’t know who will even see this, if anyone. Maybe that’s my secret hope. Anyway, so I’m struggling a bit. I spend a lot of time on the internet looking at books I may want to read, playing the Sims, on Netflix, or else I’m watching movies and reading books. A lot of my activities are incredibly lonely I guess. And no, I’m not saying that I need someone here all the time. I just need suggestions on what to do. I guess I just want to be able to fill my time with something. Yes, I work four days a week. I just don’t know what else to do in my spare time besides what I’m already doing. I need to fix this, and I need a pick-me-up. I seem to struggle a lot more when he’s working, and I think that might be because it’s hard with our schedules to even talk to each other. Our schedules have become pretty opposite lately, and it’s frustrating. So I guess I spend a lot of time on my own hoping that we can get the chance to talk, even if it’s just texting. But that’s a whole other thing and not really where I was wanting to go at this moment. Back to my original, I need ideas on what I can do to stay busy, and maybe even help myself avoid the whole winter depression thing, or make it less I guess. I really dislike winter a lot, so normally anything involving being outside in the cold and in the snow is a terrible suggestion for me.

I also need motivation. For a lot of things. I am never motivated to cook for myself. I figure who wants to clean up those dishes, and who really wants to make a mess when it’s just me. I tend to just find something to snack on or skip the meal altogether. Either that or I stick to frozen pizza which I know is not exactly good for me. I don’t know what to cook for myself either. Everything that I find in cookbooks and such is meant for at least a family of 3 or 4, not a single person.  I don’t want to have a ton of leftovers sitting around. I need to motivation to actually cook for myself and eat better. I also need to motivation to actually make it to the gym. I have the membership. It’s super close to my house. Yet, for some reason I can’t get myself to get up and go work out. I have no motivation whatsoever and I need it. I’m not saying that I’ve made some ridiculous New Years Resolution to lose a ton of weight or anything. I hate the whole New Years Resolution thing, and realize calling any goal you make that pretty much means it won’t happen. I have a goal in mind for myself, and it’s just to be healthy. And that does involve working out. It doesn’t mean I have to dramatically drop weight and bulk up or anything, but I need to be healthy and active. Of course, I need to be motivated to do that. I could really use the motivation, so anything you can think of to motivate me would be incredibly helpful. I know once I get into a habit of going so many days a week I will be able to keep it, because once you have that habit formed you feel awful when you skip. I want to get to that point. Help me get motivated to do this stuff, please. I’m really struggling to motivate myself to do these kinds of things.

I’m starting another long stretch of him working. It’s really frustrating and hard on me. I hope I don’t sound pathetic. I just am at a point where I am not sure what to do. I am so frustrated with all of this, you have no idea. I’m frustrated with his job, frustrated with money, frustrated with my lack of motivation, frustrated with this house, frustrated with nearly everything. Ugh, I really need a pick-me-up.

I think I’ll just end this now. You’ve already decided if this is pathetic or not, and you’ve already decided how you feel about it. I really don’t care if you do find this as pathetic, because I think this is what I need to do. I’m already feeling a little bit better just having written it out. I really wanted to try to not put anything personal on here, but right now it seems necessary. I’m hoping that I feel less of the need to write something personal next time.

I have never won a contest, ever.

Which is why I'm blogging about his particular contest. I've entered contest after contest and never won a single thing. What makes this contest so much more exciting for me is that it would involve expanding my collection of books (my future children should NEVER complain about not having stuff to read, because we have too many books as it is and keep adding more. I love it!). The Story Siren is a blog about books that I follow and she is putting on a contest in which she will send 3 winners a box full of books. I hope you are as excited to read that as I am to write about it and maybe, possibly, hopefully win. If I win I will for sure share all the goodies that I won via pictures and if you are my real life friend I can definitely lend a book or two to you.

So this blog post is just in hopes that I can win something for once in my life.

yay!